Some days I feel encouraged by my progress, and other days I wonder why the heck I am doing this. Why am I trying to sing? I feel like a fool, attempting an art form that I have no business attempting. I might as well try to take up professional basketball.
Of course, I'm not trying to be a professional singer. I'm just trying to graduate from "bad" to "not bad" for now. Maybe someday I'll aspire to "good."
It's been slow progress. I have to make myself practice voice. Once I start, I love it and can go for an hour or more, and then I'm singing happily for the rest of the day ... but I have a bit of an inertia problem at first. I think it's because I always feel a little silly practicing, wondering if it's all a waste of time.
There I go, writing about my voice insecurities.
Here are the songs I'm working on right now. There are a bunch of them, and it's a little overwhelming to see the list, but I'm trying to focus on just a couple of songs a week.
From the 24 Italian Songs book:
- Alma del core (Caldara)
- Sebben crudele (Caldara)
- Caro mio ben (Giordani)
- O del mio dolce ardor (Gluck)
- Tu lo sai (Torelli)
From the Standard Vocal Literature book:
- Come again, sweet love (Dowland)
- If music be the food of love (Purcell)
- Weep you no more (Quilter)
Huh. Somehow I thought I had 10 or 12 songs, but I guess it's really not that many.
I love every single one of these songs, though "Weep you no more" is my absolute favorite and has been for months.
I'm going to have quite a bit of free time over Labor Day weekend, so I'm planning to spend a good bit of it on voice. My big focus will be less on singing and more on memorizing. I've been lazy about memorizing, even though I know how important it is to be free of the crutch of the sheet music.
I hate writing that I've been lazy, but I think it's probably the truth. Another problem is I haven't been able to practice regularly. My voice lesson is on Monday evenings, and then Tuesdays and Wednesdays are just crazy, so I usually don't get to practice until lunchtime Thursday. I can get some time in after work on Friday, but I don't really get to dive into practice until Saturday and Sunday. When I'm not singing these over and over again every day, the familiarity (and memorization) doesn't come.
OK, this blog post doesn't seem to be going anywhere and I have to get to work, so I'll sign off for now.